So Sleepy

These past two days have been very tough.

I'm not sure whether it is my body recuperating from my trip to GA or whether I'm just really stressed out, but I've been sleeping almost non stop.  It is probably a combination of both.  I know that when I'm trying to deal with a lot of things all at once and I'm overly stressed, I start sleeping more.  It is my coping mechanism.

I also feel like I'm starting from scratch with missing my soldier.  After spending such a wonderful weekend with him, it was so hard to say goodbye again.  And these past two days have felt just like it did the first time we said goodbye.  I've been waiting desperately for a letter -- and I got one today!  YAY!!!!  It was like getting my very first letter from him.  I've read it about 200 times already since 4:00 today.

The letter lifted my spirits, but hurt me at the same time.  It hurt because he told me how all of the soldiers were paying for leaving post and spending time with family.  I dropped him off Sunday night at 9:00 pm.  He wrote me his letter Tuesday at 1:00am and said that he had not been allowed to sleep yet.  Ugh!  I HATE that they do this to our soldiers.  Yes, I understand it is part of the training.  Yes, I understand it is to completely transform them.  Yes, I understand it is for their future to make sure they are prepared for any situation.  But I hate that they punish our men even when they don't screw up.  But it is almost over.  I just keep telling myself that.  Or as we Army girls keep telling each other, Just keep swimming!!!

Tonight my mood has lightened a little bit.  I'm hoping tomorrow will be better.  And then Saturday I'm driving 2 hours north to spend the day with a girl whom I haven't seen in 15 years.