Woke up this morning with a text from my ex. It was asking if I was ever going to tell him my plans for moving or if I was just going to take the boys and see if he would do anything. I texted back saying that yes, I wanted to sit down with him and work out the details.
I went to pick up the boys from his house today and we had a very civil conversation. I was actually very pleased at how we interacted with each other. Of course, it wasn't about the move. But he was in the Army back in the day, so he totally understands the whole no communication and separation thing and he also knows that things can change very quickly with the Army.
Anyway, about an hour and a half later, he calls me. He demands to know if I got paperwork from child support and that now he definitely isn't going to let me take the boys. Meanwhile, I have no idea what he is yelling at me about, even though he keeps telling me that I've been lying to him about it. Apparently, he got some paperwork (I don't know when, because today is Sunday and he definitely didn't get it on a day when there isn't mail delivery!!) from child support telling him that he owes over $10,000 for back child support. I have not received any paperwork from child support, so I really honestly don't know what he is talking about yet. He is ticked though. But I sure wouldn't mind getting that $10,000! LOL
So, after he was done yelling at me, he hung up on me without letting me say anything. He called ME. Then he hung up on me? That is just dumb. So I called him back. I said a few things trying to get through to him, then he hung up on me again. We did this a few times. I think the total number of calls was 4. Then the texting started. He texted me several times telling me how I'm going to go to jail if I take the boys and how I had better "fix" this -- what he wants me to fix, I'm not sure. I have not responded to any of his texts. Actually just about half an hour ago he sent me another one saying "so now what?" which made me laugh.
But things are going to be ok. . . the only thing I'm worried about is my time restraints. . .
My soldier called me tonight. Previously I had told him that I was going to steal him away and take him to the courthouse right there near his base and marry him. Well, tonight he asked me if I was serious about it. :) I told him yes. He said, ok then, you need to bring all of this documentation. YES!! I am pretty sure this means I'll be married on Thursday!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!! I'm so excited I could do the happy dance right now.
Not only do I want to marry him immediately because, well, because I want to! but also because once I'm a military wife, we'll get more money and I'll be able to obtain a lawyer through the Army. This will help me with my problems with my ex.
One thing though, my soldier still insists that he goes to his post first and I follow later one. This would be ok, but I'm running out of money. I won't be able to pay my rent and bills here much longer. But it would be good for me to stay because if I have to get caught up in the court system here with my ex, then I'd be here to take care of it all. Sooo, I'm not sure how this is going to work. But if he goes in for more training, then the Army will pay BAH to me and that will help me with my bills. . . but if he isn't in training and he is just living on base, then I'll get nothing. Things are still up in the air, but I'm feeling a bit more positive and waaaaay super excited about getting married!! <3
Turbo Jam
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Thursday, May 27, 2010
SLACKER!
Wow, I've totally been slacking with this blog!! Sorry!!!
Ok, so what have I been up to? Well, Dad had surgery on his back a week ago. He came through well and (knock on wood) his flopping foot seems to be getting better!
I was able to talk to my Love on the phone a few times on Sunday. He called me in the morning, just to make sure I definitely couldn't make it to GA for the day (um, 7 hour drive, no I couldn't make it for the day). His mom and sisters were at Ft. Benning visiting him. He wanted me there to meet them. I wanted so badly to be there. Unfortunately I've got financial restraints. Anyway, we texted a few times that same afternoon and joked around, which was so nice. :) And then he called me that evening to tell me that his mom and sisters said, "Welcome to the family!" You have no idea how happy this makes me!!! They have decided to accept me whole heartedly. And his mom doesn't even care that I already have kids!! This is big because it bothered her a lot when she first found out. :) Oh yeah, and I made all of the other Army Wives jealous because none of them got phone calls that night. LOL
I've also been working my butt off!! I have been working out every single day. Going to the gym, going to Turbo Kick classes, going to Toning classes, and doing the Shakeology Workouts at home. I must say, I am noticing a difference in my body already. And I LOVE it! <3 I've also been networking a bit to get others involved with BeachBody. . . either as customers or as coaches. If you happen to be interested, check out my website! www.beachbodycoach.com/Zariena
I applied for a job in TX, right on post. It is an easy job, helping kids with their homework. But it is salary and it pays just about as much as I was making when I was teaching full time in NY. I'll let you know what happens with that.
While looking for jobs in TX, I've also been thinking about other trainings and getting my Masters degree. I want to get a Masters in exercise science. I've also decided I want to get certified to be a personal trainer, a Turbo Kick instructor, and a PiYo instructor. I want to take Ft. Hood by storm. I've already got some people interested in hooking up with me once we are all there to get fit, so I'm hoping it blossoms! If it does, along with my BeachBody Coach stuff, I just may not have to get a "job"!
Speaking of not having a job, I had to go to an orientation today. Unemployment made me go to an orientation that would teach me what help is available to help me get a job in FL. Of course, this was completely useless to me because I'll be in TX soon, but oh well. I had to do it in order to keep getting my unemployment benefits.
Oh yes, I also may have kind of gotten permission from my ex to take the boys out of state. He had a really weird way of saying it (dealing with dreams and whatnot) but he seems to be at peace with it and he says he "knows it has to happen." I'm still going to try to get him to sign something in front of a notary though.
I've also tentatively set a plan to visit VA and NY before my Love has to report to Ft. Hood. :) This has made my family very very happy!
Ok, I'm sure that isn't everything, but it is all I'm writing tonight. I'll try to write again tomorrow.
Ok, so what have I been up to? Well, Dad had surgery on his back a week ago. He came through well and (knock on wood) his flopping foot seems to be getting better!
I was able to talk to my Love on the phone a few times on Sunday. He called me in the morning, just to make sure I definitely couldn't make it to GA for the day (um, 7 hour drive, no I couldn't make it for the day). His mom and sisters were at Ft. Benning visiting him. He wanted me there to meet them. I wanted so badly to be there. Unfortunately I've got financial restraints. Anyway, we texted a few times that same afternoon and joked around, which was so nice. :) And then he called me that evening to tell me that his mom and sisters said, "Welcome to the family!" You have no idea how happy this makes me!!! They have decided to accept me whole heartedly. And his mom doesn't even care that I already have kids!! This is big because it bothered her a lot when she first found out. :) Oh yeah, and I made all of the other Army Wives jealous because none of them got phone calls that night. LOL
I've also been working my butt off!! I have been working out every single day. Going to the gym, going to Turbo Kick classes, going to Toning classes, and doing the Shakeology Workouts at home. I must say, I am noticing a difference in my body already. And I LOVE it! <3 I've also been networking a bit to get others involved with BeachBody. . . either as customers or as coaches. If you happen to be interested, check out my website! www.beachbodycoach.com/Zariena
I applied for a job in TX, right on post. It is an easy job, helping kids with their homework. But it is salary and it pays just about as much as I was making when I was teaching full time in NY. I'll let you know what happens with that.
While looking for jobs in TX, I've also been thinking about other trainings and getting my Masters degree. I want to get a Masters in exercise science. I've also decided I want to get certified to be a personal trainer, a Turbo Kick instructor, and a PiYo instructor. I want to take Ft. Hood by storm. I've already got some people interested in hooking up with me once we are all there to get fit, so I'm hoping it blossoms! If it does, along with my BeachBody Coach stuff, I just may not have to get a "job"!
Speaking of not having a job, I had to go to an orientation today. Unemployment made me go to an orientation that would teach me what help is available to help me get a job in FL. Of course, this was completely useless to me because I'll be in TX soon, but oh well. I had to do it in order to keep getting my unemployment benefits.
Oh yes, I also may have kind of gotten permission from my ex to take the boys out of state. He had a really weird way of saying it (dealing with dreams and whatnot) but he seems to be at peace with it and he says he "knows it has to happen." I'm still going to try to get him to sign something in front of a notary though.
I've also tentatively set a plan to visit VA and NY before my Love has to report to Ft. Hood. :) This has made my family very very happy!
Ok, I'm sure that isn't everything, but it is all I'm writing tonight. I'll try to write again tomorrow.
Friday, May 21, 2010
Surgery and Such
My father had surgery today. He had a blown disk. It was blown so badly that it was squishing a nerve causing his foot to flop. This scares the crap out of me. I know several people who have gone through this surgery, but none of them had floppy feet and none of them were my dad.
He came out of surgery well. It took about an hour and the doctor said it went very well. He is staying the night in the hospital. He was given the choice of going home today or tomorrow. He chose today. My mother told him she was leaving without him and she'd come back for him tomorrow. So, tomorrow it is! Good job Mom!!
Even though the surgery went well, we don't know if the flopping will be fixed. It may be permanent. We'll find out later on when he is up and moving around.
Being 1600 miles away and knowing there isn't anything I can do for him, I went on with my day today.
I got my Shakeology delivered today!! WooHoo!! I'm soooo excited about it. I drank a shake within 20 minutes of ripping open the box. What I didn't realize was that in the box with the shakes was the two DVDs of Shakeology Workouts. Score!
I had planned on going to the gym today, but I didn't want to miss the UPS man (I had to sign for my packages), so I sat at home most of the day. . . when I sit around the house like that, I lose motivation. I never made it to the gym. But since I got these new workout DVDs, I used them! Way cool! I wish they were a little more upbeat. I could have used a different type of music, but they got the job done. I was sweating and out of breath and had muscles burning by the end! I like that.
Today was Young Author's Day in my oldest son's class. All parents were invited into the classroom for lunch and to read the books our children wrote all on their own. The kids had set up the desks with table clothes and placemats that they designed. I brought McDonald's for my son. He was so excited (I don't let my kids have fast food often). His book was awesome! I'm so proud of him. In the back of the book he wrote a little part that was "about the author." In it he said that when he grows up he wants to be an illustrator.
His teacher approached me while I was there. She begged me to try to get him into the nation's number one art school which is very close to where we live. At which point I had to say, "He didn't tell you yet?" She had no idea that we are moving! I couldn't believe that he hadn't told her yet. I mean, this is big news! LOL, oh well, my son is much more interested in drawing than in talking to people. So, I filled her in on our move and everything that is going on. So, knowing this, she begged me to find something along those lines for him. . . he definitely needs to be in a school based on art. He will definitely go places if he gets the right training.
He came out of surgery well. It took about an hour and the doctor said it went very well. He is staying the night in the hospital. He was given the choice of going home today or tomorrow. He chose today. My mother told him she was leaving without him and she'd come back for him tomorrow. So, tomorrow it is! Good job Mom!!
Even though the surgery went well, we don't know if the flopping will be fixed. It may be permanent. We'll find out later on when he is up and moving around.
Being 1600 miles away and knowing there isn't anything I can do for him, I went on with my day today.
I got my Shakeology delivered today!! WooHoo!! I'm soooo excited about it. I drank a shake within 20 minutes of ripping open the box. What I didn't realize was that in the box with the shakes was the two DVDs of Shakeology Workouts. Score!
I had planned on going to the gym today, but I didn't want to miss the UPS man (I had to sign for my packages), so I sat at home most of the day. . . when I sit around the house like that, I lose motivation. I never made it to the gym. But since I got these new workout DVDs, I used them! Way cool! I wish they were a little more upbeat. I could have used a different type of music, but they got the job done. I was sweating and out of breath and had muscles burning by the end! I like that.
Today was Young Author's Day in my oldest son's class. All parents were invited into the classroom for lunch and to read the books our children wrote all on their own. The kids had set up the desks with table clothes and placemats that they designed. I brought McDonald's for my son. He was so excited (I don't let my kids have fast food often). His book was awesome! I'm so proud of him. In the back of the book he wrote a little part that was "about the author." In it he said that when he grows up he wants to be an illustrator.
His teacher approached me while I was there. She begged me to try to get him into the nation's number one art school which is very close to where we live. At which point I had to say, "He didn't tell you yet?" She had no idea that we are moving! I couldn't believe that he hadn't told her yet. I mean, this is big news! LOL, oh well, my son is much more interested in drawing than in talking to people. So, I filled her in on our move and everything that is going on. So, knowing this, she begged me to find something along those lines for him. . . he definitely needs to be in a school based on art. He will definitely go places if he gets the right training.
Monday, May 17, 2010
Randomness
I ordered my Shakeology today! I'm super excited!! I got the half chocolate, half greenberry box. I cannot wait for it to arrive. I was going to wait to order it until I'm a little more financially stable, but these past two days have been horrible for me foodwise. I've been eating non stop, and absolutely nothing healthy. And now I'm paying for it. My body is so mad at me right now! I feel horrible physically, so I made the decision to order it. And I'm making the conscious decision to stop eating so much junk!! I just don't know what got into me.
I made a trip to the mall today too. I was on a mission. A friend of mine had found a white bolero that I could wear over a dress I'm planning on wearing to my soldier's graduation. I LOVE LOVE LOVE this dress. It is my all time favorite dress ever! But it is strapless. Which isn't a problem for me at all! It looks amazing on!! But my soldier's graduation will also be the first time I meet his mom. Being a Muslim Afghan, I don't want to upset her in any way (by showing too much skin?). So, I bought the bolero just in case. It covers up my back and chest and is short sleeves. Wait. I'll post pics!!
This is the bolero with the top clasped.
And this is me without the bolero! (My favorite! I don't like hiding the dress!) Yeah, pardon the messy room too!
So anyway, my friend found the bolero for me online and sent me the link. It was from JCPenny's. So, I drove to my mall and asked them if they had them in stock. They did! So, I went straight to where they were, purchased it and walked out. I also walked by Aldo Shoes (my FAVORITE shoe store!!) and I DIDN'T go in! Now that is self control!! Yes, I'm very proud of myself. :)
Feel free to comment below and let me know what you think, yes bolero or no bolero?
I also went to the gym today. Went to Walmart to pick up some photo prints to send to my soldier, and did some work on my BeachBody business. I also had a few things quirky things I wanted to write on here, but of course, now I can't remember them. . .
Oh! I CAN tell you about my conversations with my youngest son today though. He is three. He asked me today if we were moving to Texas today after school. I told him no, that we aren't moving for a few months. He got REALLY mad at me. I explained to him that we can't move without packing and that we haven't even started packing yet. He seemed ok with this. From then on, we would sporadically talk about packing, how we are going to have to throw a lot of stuff away, especially toys they don't play with. My youngest was still all good with this. Then a little later this evening, I was in my room on the computer working on my BeachBody stuff and he comes in demanding to know WHEN we are going to start packing! He thought we were going to start packing tonight! Poor kid! He is so excited about this move, which is a great thing! But he's going to drive me crazy before we ever get there! LOL. In reality, both of my children are very excited about moving to Texas. And I am very thankful for this.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
WonderWoman
I'm starting to get really excited about this whole BeachBody thing. And I'm totally amped about Turbo Fire. As soon as it is released to coaches, I'll be buying it.
For those of you who know me, you know I'm not overweight. In fact, not to toot my own horn or anything, but I look pretty darn good for a mother of two! But I've got soft parts that I'd like to tone up a bit. I don't want to lose weight, I just want to lose some body fat and gain some muscle mass.
While thinking about all of this healthy living and BeachBody stuff, I've also been thinking about going back to school. Actually, I've been thinking about going back to school for some time now, but especially in the past couple of weeks. I've already started my masters in education, but I really don't feel like it is for me. Sure, I like the vacations that come with teaching. And I actually like the whole paperwork/homework aspect of it. But I just don't feel like it is right for me.
So, I was thinking, perhaps getting a masters in exercise science. Hmmmm. Maybe? It is something I like. Something I've already got a base knowledge about. And it would work hand in hand with my BeachBody Coach business! It would also fit in well with my new life with my new hubby (once we actually get married!) who is very health conscious. I also want to lead by example to my two little boys. I don't want them to get caught in the trends of today's youth of being extremely unhealthy and possibly obese!
On a completely different note, I got a phone call from my soldier tonight! Which normally makes me extremely happy. But tonight, when I hung up and should have felt like I was floating, I didn't. I felt like I had let him down. We could only talk for a little over three minutes. He had asked me last week if I could come up to GA on the 25th to meet his little sister who is on a 10 day leave from her deployment. But I just can't. Financially it is impossible, let alone trying to find someone to watch my boys again. So, I told him on the phone that I can't make it. He didn't sound upset or anything, but I still feel like I let him down. He had to get off the phone with me so that he could call her and tell her that she has to find other transportation from the airport to his post. It sucks.
But I wrote my nightly letter to him and started to feel a little better about it. And when he first asked me, he told me it wasn't a big deal if I couldn't. I just really wish I could. Oh well. I've got to get over it. And I'll be in GA in 18 days!!!! WooHOOOOOO!
For those of you who know me, you know I'm not overweight. In fact, not to toot my own horn or anything, but I look pretty darn good for a mother of two! But I've got soft parts that I'd like to tone up a bit. I don't want to lose weight, I just want to lose some body fat and gain some muscle mass.
While thinking about all of this healthy living and BeachBody stuff, I've also been thinking about going back to school. Actually, I've been thinking about going back to school for some time now, but especially in the past couple of weeks. I've already started my masters in education, but I really don't feel like it is for me. Sure, I like the vacations that come with teaching. And I actually like the whole paperwork/homework aspect of it. But I just don't feel like it is right for me.
So, I was thinking, perhaps getting a masters in exercise science. Hmmmm. Maybe? It is something I like. Something I've already got a base knowledge about. And it would work hand in hand with my BeachBody Coach business! It would also fit in well with my new life with my new hubby (once we actually get married!) who is very health conscious. I also want to lead by example to my two little boys. I don't want them to get caught in the trends of today's youth of being extremely unhealthy and possibly obese!
On a completely different note, I got a phone call from my soldier tonight! Which normally makes me extremely happy. But tonight, when I hung up and should have felt like I was floating, I didn't. I felt like I had let him down. We could only talk for a little over three minutes. He had asked me last week if I could come up to GA on the 25th to meet his little sister who is on a 10 day leave from her deployment. But I just can't. Financially it is impossible, let alone trying to find someone to watch my boys again. So, I told him on the phone that I can't make it. He didn't sound upset or anything, but I still feel like I let him down. He had to get off the phone with me so that he could call her and tell her that she has to find other transportation from the airport to his post. It sucks.
But I wrote my nightly letter to him and started to feel a little better about it. And when he first asked me, he told me it wasn't a big deal if I couldn't. I just really wish I could. Oh well. I've got to get over it. And I'll be in GA in 18 days!!!! WooHOOOOOO!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
All Piling Up
My ex suffers from Bipolar Disorder. I lived with him for 8 years, so I kinda know how he works. So after talking to him about moving away with our children, I've been giving him time to think and work things out in his head. He has been texting me nonstop. Some texts have been rational. Some have been mean. Some sad. And some threatening. I'm taking it all with a grain of salt. I know how his illness runs and I'm just waiting.
He'll come to his senses in time. He won't like it, but he will.
I've been so busy and stressed with dealing with my ex as well as dealing with Jacob's school stuff and Shiloh's teeth stuff (he has an infected tooth again and half of his face is swollen), and my new BeachBody stuff and moving stuff that I have gotten sick. :( Not bad, but enough to grind me to a halt and make me sleep all day today. I'm not joking. I got up at 6:45am, got the kids off to school and was back in bed by 8am. I got up today at 3:30 and that was only because I had to go pick up the boys.
Amazingly, I'm still really tired, so I think I'm going to go back to bed now because both of my little ones are tucked in for the night.
He'll come to his senses in time. He won't like it, but he will.
I've been so busy and stressed with dealing with my ex as well as dealing with Jacob's school stuff and Shiloh's teeth stuff (he has an infected tooth again and half of his face is swollen), and my new BeachBody stuff and moving stuff that I have gotten sick. :( Not bad, but enough to grind me to a halt and make me sleep all day today. I'm not joking. I got up at 6:45am, got the kids off to school and was back in bed by 8am. I got up today at 3:30 and that was only because I had to go pick up the boys.
Amazingly, I'm still really tired, so I think I'm going to go back to bed now because both of my little ones are tucked in for the night.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Moving Drama
I dragged my butt to the gym today. It felt good to get all sweaty! Now I need to do it again tomorrow.
I also had my "meeting" today with my ex. It went exactly like I thought it would. He said no. I asked why. He said if I take the boys out of state he'll have me arrested and have the boys delivered to him. He said the only way he'd agree to it was if a judge made him. It was pretty much all of that over and over again for 20 minutes. Not very productive.
Then maybe an hour later I got a text from him saying that he'd known this was coming and that he wasn't going to say no until I "talked down" to him. Not really sure what he means by this. If thinks me telling him the truth and stating facts is "talking down" then yes, I did. Otherwise I didn't say anything nasty.
So, tomorrow I need to start researching, try to talk to a lawyer and see if I actually need to start court proceedings. I'm not looking forward to it. But there is hope. I was told that perhaps I won't have to do anything because since we never married, we have no paperwork about custody and whatnot. So, since there isn't a court order saying I CAN'T take the boys out of state, I can! And he would have to go to court to file a petition for visitation.
But like I said, I'm going to do my research and try to talk to a lawyer about this. . . I'll let you all know what happens!
I also had my "meeting" today with my ex. It went exactly like I thought it would. He said no. I asked why. He said if I take the boys out of state he'll have me arrested and have the boys delivered to him. He said the only way he'd agree to it was if a judge made him. It was pretty much all of that over and over again for 20 minutes. Not very productive.
Then maybe an hour later I got a text from him saying that he'd known this was coming and that he wasn't going to say no until I "talked down" to him. Not really sure what he means by this. If thinks me telling him the truth and stating facts is "talking down" then yes, I did. Otherwise I didn't say anything nasty.
So, tomorrow I need to start researching, try to talk to a lawyer and see if I actually need to start court proceedings. I'm not looking forward to it. But there is hope. I was told that perhaps I won't have to do anything because since we never married, we have no paperwork about custody and whatnot. So, since there isn't a court order saying I CAN'T take the boys out of state, I can! And he would have to go to court to file a petition for visitation.
But like I said, I'm going to do my research and try to talk to a lawyer about this. . . I'll let you all know what happens!
Monday, May 10, 2010
Two Things
I focused on two main things today. First, setting up my BeachBody Coach website and learning how to manage it. Second, talking to my boys and their father about moving.
Setting up my BeachBody Coach website (www.beachbodycoach.com/Zariena) was a blast! There is so much available for me. I love it! My sponser was an angel and answered every single one of my gajillion questions I had. I can't wait to start helping people, making money, and using the products myself!
I tried getting in touch with my ex through texting today. I told him I'd like to sit down with him and talk to him sometime this week and that it would be better to do it before the kids came home. He texted back saying that if I had something to say, to just say it. I told him I'd prefer to talk face to face because there is a lot happening right now. So, he texts me as I'm heading to pick up the boys. Of course, I had already mentioned that I didn't want the boys running around while I'm trying to talk to him, so I asked him if he had time tomorrow and he said yes around 4pm right after work. Ok, that works for me.
Then about a half hour later, he texts me and says, "If you want to talk about taking the boys. Don't."
What does that mean? That he doesn't want to hear it? Or that he won't let me? He is always so cryptic. Why can't he ever just get to the point and lay it all on the line? Anyway, I'm going to meet him tomorrow and talk to him "about taking the boys" and I'll post and let everyone know how it goes!!
Setting up my BeachBody Coach website (www.beachbodycoach.com/Zariena) was a blast! There is so much available for me. I love it! My sponser was an angel and answered every single one of my gajillion questions I had. I can't wait to start helping people, making money, and using the products myself!
I tried getting in touch with my ex through texting today. I told him I'd like to sit down with him and talk to him sometime this week and that it would be better to do it before the kids came home. He texted back saying that if I had something to say, to just say it. I told him I'd prefer to talk face to face because there is a lot happening right now. So, he texts me as I'm heading to pick up the boys. Of course, I had already mentioned that I didn't want the boys running around while I'm trying to talk to him, so I asked him if he had time tomorrow and he said yes around 4pm right after work. Ok, that works for me.
Then about a half hour later, he texts me and says, "If you want to talk about taking the boys. Don't."
What does that mean? That he doesn't want to hear it? Or that he won't let me? He is always so cryptic. Why can't he ever just get to the point and lay it all on the line? Anyway, I'm going to meet him tomorrow and talk to him "about taking the boys" and I'll post and let everyone know how it goes!!
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Just Another Day
Today was Mother's Day. I stayed in my jammies until 5:15PM. I would have stayed in them straight on through, but my friend Palma invited me to her house for dinner. So, I felt like I should probably have normal clothes on instead of my nightgown and a robe. . . My oldest son stayed in his undies all day until I made him put clothes on around 5:30pm and my youngest insisted on getting dressed around 1:30pm today. We did nothing all day. I haven't been such a bum in years!!
I got a phone call from my soldier tonight too. Bliss!! It was so great hearing his voice, especially after such a rough week. He told me that he had been told that he won't be deploying until April of next year! YAY!!!! He said, "So that means you'll be moving to Texas if that is ok," and I laughed and told him that I had already been looking for houses out there! It broke my mama's heart though when I told her. She had been so excited that I might be moving in with her. I'm sorry Mama!! But this is going to be so exciting!! I can't wait!
He also told me that his sister who is currently in the Army and deployed will have a 10 day leave and that she is visiting him on May 25th. He asked me if I'd be able to come back to GA to meet her. It is a Tuesday. And I don't know if I can pull this one off. It's a seven hour drive, so I can't really make a day trip out of it. . . but I can't spend the money on a hotel and stuff again too, especially since I'll be there on June 2nd. . . I'm gonna have to see if I can't work some sort of magic here. He told me it wasn't a big deal if I can't, I'll just have to wait another six months to meet her.
My spirit is soaring right now. I'm so happy to have gotten a call from him. And I'm so excited about moving to TX. I can't wait for this new chapter/adventure to begin!!
I got a phone call from my soldier tonight too. Bliss!! It was so great hearing his voice, especially after such a rough week. He told me that he had been told that he won't be deploying until April of next year! YAY!!!! He said, "So that means you'll be moving to Texas if that is ok," and I laughed and told him that I had already been looking for houses out there! It broke my mama's heart though when I told her. She had been so excited that I might be moving in with her. I'm sorry Mama!! But this is going to be so exciting!! I can't wait!
He also told me that his sister who is currently in the Army and deployed will have a 10 day leave and that she is visiting him on May 25th. He asked me if I'd be able to come back to GA to meet her. It is a Tuesday. And I don't know if I can pull this one off. It's a seven hour drive, so I can't really make a day trip out of it. . . but I can't spend the money on a hotel and stuff again too, especially since I'll be there on June 2nd. . . I'm gonna have to see if I can't work some sort of magic here. He told me it wasn't a big deal if I can't, I'll just have to wait another six months to meet her.
My spirit is soaring right now. I'm so happy to have gotten a call from him. And I'm so excited about moving to TX. I can't wait for this new chapter/adventure to begin!!
The Sponge Place
Friday was perhaps the worst day for me in the past three months. I cried. I slept. My friend helped me out by taking me out of my condo for a few hours. But yesterday made up for it.
I had a great day yesterday. Sure, I had to drive two hours one way to get to my destination, but it wasn't a bad trip at all.
I decided to visit a girl that I had gone to highschool with in NY. We never were friends in highschool. We knew of each other, but that was the extent of our relationship. Somehow we reconnected on Facebook (I love facebook!! LOL) and have become good friends.
So, I loaded the boys into the car, said a quick prayer that my car would make the trip ok, and hit the highway headed north. We made the trip in a little under two hours. It was really easy!
We hung out in her condo for a little while just kind of catching up and complaining about how Florida laws are stupid when it comes to "parenting plans" and child support and stuff like that. The kids played together in her son's room. Then she sorted through the clothes that I had brought for her (I had gone through my closet and was going to donate clothes to Goodwill, but decided I'd rather she get the clothes since we are about the same size!).
She chose a pink halter top dress that looked AMAZING on her and we went to Tarpon Springs to some sponge place. It was very fun. It was a touristy place with lots of little shops that all had the same types of things and restaurants. We ate at a Greek restaurant where I had calamari and got to play with my food. Hey! It wasn't my fault they cut it so that it looked like finger puppets!! LOL
I also bought a new bag. . . yeah yeah, I know. I have a problem. Do they make support groups who are addicted to purses??
We were all getting tired, so we hit the fudge shop (I have to say, it is better than Kilwins!!) and headed back to her condo. But we made a quick stop to get her some makeup too, which was fun for me because no one ever asks me for my opinion on that sort of stuff!
Back at her condo, the boys fed the ducks and the fish and then we had to pile back into the car for that two hour drive back home.
It was such a nice relaxing day. I haven't had a day like that in a long time. Thank you Amanda!!
And today is Mother's Day. But as a single mom, that pretty much means it is just another day. I'm doing dishes and laundry today. Nothing special. Oh yeah, and my ex sent me a text wishing me a Happy Mother's Day today -- even though I haven't heard a word from him since the big blow out before my trip to GA.
Well, I've got to go feed the chillun's because, like I said, it is just another day. . .
I had a great day yesterday. Sure, I had to drive two hours one way to get to my destination, but it wasn't a bad trip at all.
I decided to visit a girl that I had gone to highschool with in NY. We never were friends in highschool. We knew of each other, but that was the extent of our relationship. Somehow we reconnected on Facebook (I love facebook!! LOL) and have become good friends.
So, I loaded the boys into the car, said a quick prayer that my car would make the trip ok, and hit the highway headed north. We made the trip in a little under two hours. It was really easy!
We hung out in her condo for a little while just kind of catching up and complaining about how Florida laws are stupid when it comes to "parenting plans" and child support and stuff like that. The kids played together in her son's room. Then she sorted through the clothes that I had brought for her (I had gone through my closet and was going to donate clothes to Goodwill, but decided I'd rather she get the clothes since we are about the same size!).
She chose a pink halter top dress that looked AMAZING on her and we went to Tarpon Springs to some sponge place. It was very fun. It was a touristy place with lots of little shops that all had the same types of things and restaurants. We ate at a Greek restaurant where I had calamari and got to play with my food. Hey! It wasn't my fault they cut it so that it looked like finger puppets!! LOL
I also bought a new bag. . . yeah yeah, I know. I have a problem. Do they make support groups who are addicted to purses??
We were all getting tired, so we hit the fudge shop (I have to say, it is better than Kilwins!!) and headed back to her condo. But we made a quick stop to get her some makeup too, which was fun for me because no one ever asks me for my opinion on that sort of stuff!
Back at her condo, the boys fed the ducks and the fish and then we had to pile back into the car for that two hour drive back home.
It was such a nice relaxing day. I haven't had a day like that in a long time. Thank you Amanda!!
And today is Mother's Day. But as a single mom, that pretty much means it is just another day. I'm doing dishes and laundry today. Nothing special. Oh yeah, and my ex sent me a text wishing me a Happy Mother's Day today -- even though I haven't heard a word from him since the big blow out before my trip to GA.
Well, I've got to go feed the chillun's because, like I said, it is just another day. . .
Thursday, May 6, 2010
So Sleepy
These past two days have been very tough.
I'm not sure whether it is my body recuperating from my trip to GA or whether I'm just really stressed out, but I've been sleeping almost non stop. It is probably a combination of both. I know that when I'm trying to deal with a lot of things all at once and I'm overly stressed, I start sleeping more. It is my coping mechanism.
I also feel like I'm starting from scratch with missing my soldier. After spending such a wonderful weekend with him, it was so hard to say goodbye again. And these past two days have felt just like it did the first time we said goodbye. I've been waiting desperately for a letter -- and I got one today! YAY!!!! It was like getting my very first letter from him. I've read it about 200 times already since 4:00 today.
The letter lifted my spirits, but hurt me at the same time. It hurt because he told me how all of the soldiers were paying for leaving post and spending time with family. I dropped him off Sunday night at 9:00 pm. He wrote me his letter Tuesday at 1:00am and said that he had not been allowed to sleep yet. Ugh! I HATE that they do this to our soldiers. Yes, I understand it is part of the training. Yes, I understand it is to completely transform them. Yes, I understand it is for their future to make sure they are prepared for any situation. But I hate that they punish our men even when they don't screw up. But it is almost over. I just keep telling myself that. Or as we Army girls keep telling each other, Just keep swimming!!!
Tonight my mood has lightened a little bit. I'm hoping tomorrow will be better. And then Saturday I'm driving 2 hours north to spend the day with a girl whom I haven't seen in 15 years.
I'm not sure whether it is my body recuperating from my trip to GA or whether I'm just really stressed out, but I've been sleeping almost non stop. It is probably a combination of both. I know that when I'm trying to deal with a lot of things all at once and I'm overly stressed, I start sleeping more. It is my coping mechanism.
I also feel like I'm starting from scratch with missing my soldier. After spending such a wonderful weekend with him, it was so hard to say goodbye again. And these past two days have felt just like it did the first time we said goodbye. I've been waiting desperately for a letter -- and I got one today! YAY!!!! It was like getting my very first letter from him. I've read it about 200 times already since 4:00 today.
The letter lifted my spirits, but hurt me at the same time. It hurt because he told me how all of the soldiers were paying for leaving post and spending time with family. I dropped him off Sunday night at 9:00 pm. He wrote me his letter Tuesday at 1:00am and said that he had not been allowed to sleep yet. Ugh! I HATE that they do this to our soldiers. Yes, I understand it is part of the training. Yes, I understand it is to completely transform them. Yes, I understand it is for their future to make sure they are prepared for any situation. But I hate that they punish our men even when they don't screw up. But it is almost over. I just keep telling myself that. Or as we Army girls keep telling each other, Just keep swimming!!!
Tonight my mood has lightened a little bit. I'm hoping tomorrow will be better. And then Saturday I'm driving 2 hours north to spend the day with a girl whom I haven't seen in 15 years.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Georgia Adventure
Wow. It feels like forever since I last posted. It kinda has been since I was posting something new every day!
Well, since last time I blogged, I've been on an adventure.
Thursday last week, I flew my mother from upstate NY to FL to spend the weekend with my children because their father ditched them. Again.
Friday last week, I rented a car, got in it and drove to Georgia. It took me about 7 hours and 10 minutes. That is including 3 stops. The trip was amazingly easy. I was a little nervous because this whole trip was a bunch of "firsts" for me. This was my very first trip all alone that was further than an hour away. This was my very first time renting a car. This was my very first time spending nights in a hotel all alone. This was my very first time on an Army post. This was the very first time I saw my soldier since he left for Basic Training. This was my very first time meeting some of the best girls I've ever met from all over the US. And I'm sure there are several other "firsts" that I'm forgetting.
I made it safe and sound to my hotel and quickly texted a girl I had been communicating with on Facebook before I even checked in. She was nearby and she stopped by so I could follow her to Post to get our official passes for the weekend so we could enter and leave the post whenever we wanted. After we drove around in circles for a little while, we went to the PX (for those of you not used to military terms, this is a shopping center on post). While in the PX, I saw soldiers walking around in their uniforms and I almost started to cry. I missed my man so badly and knew he was so close, but I wasn't allowed to see him until the next morning.
We met up with some other girls and went out to dinner that night. It was really nice to meet people in person whom we had been talking to online for 2 months. After dinner, we all wound up in my hotel room just chatting away. It was great!
I hardly slept at all that night. I was waaaaaaay too excited because I was going to see my soldier the next morning!!
5:00 AM came very quickly and I was ready to go. We had a family briefing at 7AM, well, supposedly. They Army guys wouldn't let us in until around 7:30ish. Then we were "briefed" and then left to wait. Oh yeah, that is what the Army is all about. . . a lot of hurry up and wait. Suddenly we heard the soldiers yell outside. I thought for sure I was going to throw up from excitement!!
I went outside to meet my soldier when his platoon number was called. I was all alone at that point because the girls I was with had soldiers in different platoons. I walked outside and looked and looked. Then I started to panic. I couldn't find him! I started to feel horrible because maybe I just wasn't recognizing him. Then I got really scared that he had gotten in trouble for something and that they had taken his pass away from him. Then a drill sergeant came up to me. Oh God.
"Who are you looking for?" I tell him my soldier's name. "Ahhh, Jill?" Um, yes. "He has been moved to 4th platoon." Seriously? Yes!! I'm not a bad girlfriend, it wasn't that I wasn't recognizing him and he wasn't in trouble! Next thing I know, we are hugging. It was so good to be in his arms again.
The weekend went by in a blur. It was wonderful. I didn't even mind if we did nothing at all. I was just so happy to be able to look at him with my own eyes and to be in the same room as him. I'm so in love.
I managed to keep it together and not cry the last night when I had to drop him off and leave. I also managed to keep it together when I was around the other girls who were crying and when I went back to my friend's room. I even managed to keep it together the whole drive home the next day.
I made it home. Got inside and started telling my mom all about my trip. And then I started to cry.
And then my mom started to cry.
I asked her why she was crying and she told me it was because I was just so cute. She is happy that I'm so happy.
My mom hit the road today and is driving back up north with a friend of the family. And now I'm here. Alone. Well, not really. My children are here with me, but when they are in school during the day, I have to try to cope with the separation all by myself. It sucks.
I know I can do it. I'm a trooper. I'm a strong woman who has been through a lot and this is just one more blip in my life.
I am very thankful for the wonderful man I have in my life and also for the new friends I made while in GA!! Girls, you rock!!
Now, I'm doing another countdown. You can see it to the right of this blog. I get to go back to GA in June!!
Well, since last time I blogged, I've been on an adventure.
Thursday last week, I flew my mother from upstate NY to FL to spend the weekend with my children because their father ditched them. Again.
Friday last week, I rented a car, got in it and drove to Georgia. It took me about 7 hours and 10 minutes. That is including 3 stops. The trip was amazingly easy. I was a little nervous because this whole trip was a bunch of "firsts" for me. This was my very first trip all alone that was further than an hour away. This was my very first time renting a car. This was my very first time spending nights in a hotel all alone. This was my very first time on an Army post. This was the very first time I saw my soldier since he left for Basic Training. This was my very first time meeting some of the best girls I've ever met from all over the US. And I'm sure there are several other "firsts" that I'm forgetting.
I made it safe and sound to my hotel and quickly texted a girl I had been communicating with on Facebook before I even checked in. She was nearby and she stopped by so I could follow her to Post to get our official passes for the weekend so we could enter and leave the post whenever we wanted. After we drove around in circles for a little while, we went to the PX (for those of you not used to military terms, this is a shopping center on post). While in the PX, I saw soldiers walking around in their uniforms and I almost started to cry. I missed my man so badly and knew he was so close, but I wasn't allowed to see him until the next morning.
We met up with some other girls and went out to dinner that night. It was really nice to meet people in person whom we had been talking to online for 2 months. After dinner, we all wound up in my hotel room just chatting away. It was great!
I hardly slept at all that night. I was waaaaaaay too excited because I was going to see my soldier the next morning!!
5:00 AM came very quickly and I was ready to go. We had a family briefing at 7AM, well, supposedly. They Army guys wouldn't let us in until around 7:30ish. Then we were "briefed" and then left to wait. Oh yeah, that is what the Army is all about. . . a lot of hurry up and wait. Suddenly we heard the soldiers yell outside. I thought for sure I was going to throw up from excitement!!
I went outside to meet my soldier when his platoon number was called. I was all alone at that point because the girls I was with had soldiers in different platoons. I walked outside and looked and looked. Then I started to panic. I couldn't find him! I started to feel horrible because maybe I just wasn't recognizing him. Then I got really scared that he had gotten in trouble for something and that they had taken his pass away from him. Then a drill sergeant came up to me. Oh God.
"Who are you looking for?" I tell him my soldier's name. "Ahhh, Jill?" Um, yes. "He has been moved to 4th platoon." Seriously? Yes!! I'm not a bad girlfriend, it wasn't that I wasn't recognizing him and he wasn't in trouble! Next thing I know, we are hugging. It was so good to be in his arms again.
The weekend went by in a blur. It was wonderful. I didn't even mind if we did nothing at all. I was just so happy to be able to look at him with my own eyes and to be in the same room as him. I'm so in love.
I managed to keep it together and not cry the last night when I had to drop him off and leave. I also managed to keep it together when I was around the other girls who were crying and when I went back to my friend's room. I even managed to keep it together the whole drive home the next day.
I made it home. Got inside and started telling my mom all about my trip. And then I started to cry.
And then my mom started to cry.
I asked her why she was crying and she told me it was because I was just so cute. She is happy that I'm so happy.
My mom hit the road today and is driving back up north with a friend of the family. And now I'm here. Alone. Well, not really. My children are here with me, but when they are in school during the day, I have to try to cope with the separation all by myself. It sucks.
I know I can do it. I'm a trooper. I'm a strong woman who has been through a lot and this is just one more blip in my life.
I am very thankful for the wonderful man I have in my life and also for the new friends I made while in GA!! Girls, you rock!!
Now, I'm doing another countdown. You can see it to the right of this blog. I get to go back to GA in June!!
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