Lonely

Evenings and nights are the hardest.

This is the time of day when I really start to miss my man.  It is like this wave of lonelyness comes crashing down on me, no matter what I do to try to stop it.  I try to keep busy.  I help my son with his homework.  I make sure my youngest son leaves my older one alone.  I serve dinner, clean up dinner, give baths, watch movies.  Nothing seems to help.  Sadness overwhelms me almost every single night.

I long to be in his arms again.  I ache to snuggle up in bed with my head on his chest while we watch youtube videos together.  I'd give anything just to be in the same room as him.

It won't be much longer now, but it has already been an eternity.